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Mom made cake.

I ate.

>Now I feel fat.

Aaand acting like a self-obsessed bitch thank you.







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I hate/love being sick.It's kind of being stoned, although I wouldn't know cause I've never been stoned.I'm guessing it's something like it.I'm feeling euphoric, dizzy, my vision is uhhh %*)^&^&) and I'm wrapped up with blankets and scarves.It's totally cool.

I love winter.I hate the sun.I love you dear rain.

Yours,

drugged kid

I had fun at my birthday party, I admit.

Now change of topic, I uploaded a few photos from my vacation.



I figured, I like photography generally.It's not so cool when you do is as a job though.It should be spontaneous or it loses its cool.

The 'material' was good.I mean, it was a pretty beautifull spot, where we were.I tried to improvise.It also requires luck though with the clouds and stuff.Some of the photos looked ok I guess.



^See I don't care about the stupid ship, but: that one was used as a bridge.You can see cars driving in and out.I thought it was funny.I took it from inside our car.

Hate to admit it, I feel terrible.I probably look terrible.I haven't stepped out of the house for about a week.It's so hot and sunny out there.
I haven't eaten anything since..I don't know, maybe yesterday night.I keep my cellphone turned off, I really don't feel like seeing or talking to anyone.I even sent my mom out to rent some dvds so I could watch.Oh wait, I told her to bring ice cream too, so I did eat something.I wish I could go out to get a couple of magazines..

Oh dammit, how did I end up like this?I regret and regret but still don't want to make things better.I want to be alone.And fuck, my birthday's on Sunday, what if I'm still like this by then?I'm gonna have to tell them to come to my house in the end and they'll see how miserable I've become and they'll be sorry for me or never speak to me again(which would be a good thing).Shit.I never liked summer.

I'm addicted to my misery.I just want to stay in my little sick bublle is that a crime?

I love them boys.And what an amazing voice...genious. Toothpaste Kisses > The Maccabees Cradle me I'll cradle you I'll win your heart with a woop-a-woo pulling shapes just for your eyes so with toothpaste kisses and lines I'll be yours and you'll be Lay with me, I'll lay with you we'll do the things that lovers do put the stars in our eyes and with heart shaped bruises and late night kisses devine

Jamie T at...




T in the park.

Damn that's a lot of people.

Ecstatic

Fashion is easy and fun to sketch.Shallow.

And who isn't tired of this?

I don't know.

Who is actually bothered?
Should they be bothered?
Do we owe anybody anything?

We can just live our tiny lives, die and leave the planet ruined for the future people.How nice.

At least I'll have an easy conscience.How dull.

Peanut butter.

Turns out, not for me.

I tried it once, twice, three times, nothing.It still tastes slightly disgusting while melting in my mouth.Yuck.

And I was even thinking about using it for the cupcakes(which didn't turn out as bad as I thought they would this time).

So, it's all good.No peanut-butter-calories for  me , thank you.

Cheerios.

So I went to the biggest and best market you can find in my city today.I had to get everything I needed for my best friends birthday party.It a shame if your birthday is on a day on which everyone's out of town, so, I'm planning it three days earlier.July 13th.

I think I did get everything I need for the cupcakes.Plus -oh, what joy!- I found peanutbutter!It's extremely hard to find over here so, I'm gonna use it wisely.

It all sounds so very sugary...can I afford gaining pounds?Gah..there's a price for everything, isn't there?

Damn.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.  Line cupcake pans with paper liners.

Combine flour, sugar, baking powder, and salt in a large mixing bowl.  Add shortening, milk, and vanilla.  Beat for 1 minute on medium speed.  Scrape side of bowl with a spatula.

Add eggs to the mixture.  Beat for 1 minute on medium speed.  Scrape bowl again.  Beat on high speed for 1 minute 30 seconds until well mixed.

Spoon cupcake batter into paper liners until 1/2 to 2/3 full.

Bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean.

Cool 5 minutes in pans then remove and place on wire racks to cool completely.

Once cupcakes are completely cooled, frost with your favorite frosting recipe or decorate as you desire.

 

thanks to www.cupcakeRecipes.com

I'm awake non-stop for 24 hours now.I just got back from the field, where I've been running.My knees hurt like hell but I can't sleep now, it's 9 in the morning.
How did I end up so fucked up?I'm 15 and I have bloody bags under my eyes.

I need a cupcake to cheer up.But they don't know what a cupcake is here.I should make some.




Long gone are the cupcake party times.


Sleep tight.